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CAMP WAS FLIPPIN AWESOMEEE

i roomed with liz nash, who's absolutely amazing, hah.

this is the "hallway of death" we had to walk to get to our room.

we met hillary and vanessa, two of the sweetest girls ever.

this week i laughed harder than i've ever laughed in my life

"don't mess with kurt unless you wanna get hurt!"

matt is way cool.

there was a cookout, a dance, concerts, talent show, movies, and of course we had like, 5 hours of orchestra everyday.  but when we were done we just walked into town and shopped and visited my sister at work.

one of the days, nash and i ate at panchero's, hah.

my sister erin got a puppy! its effin cute.

SILLY STRING WARRR on floor one! the boys totally lost.

then we had to clean up.

 im too lazy to rotate it.

ahaha kurt wanted a picture:

they silly stringed the crap outta me.

drew, one of the counselors.

hillary's a thug.

BAND CAMP PDA!!!!!

we ordered half a gallon of ravioli and breadsticks to the dorm.

then hillary and i ran to the gas station to get forks and soda, singing every dashboard song we could think of on the way, haha. <3

ahh we had soo much fun, i love these girls, and we're hanging out this summer for sureeee

check out hill's site, she also has some sweet pics.

hah and im on the camp website, here's the pic

ahahah look at my belly.

annd

i missed this kid like craaaazzy <3

ps steamboat days is here!! ahah yes.

love you all. <3

so okay, this feels like a "last-post-ever" situation, but i'm sure i will post again within the next month.

first of all, i miss they way things used to be. i miss sitting on my front porch with my best friends eating a gallon of ice cream and pie. i miss sitting out there with them watching cops pick up fat drunk guys and their pants falling when they are handcuffed.. i miss skinny dipping in my pool at like midnight. i remember we threw our hyenna happy meal toys into the street and would count how many cars hit them, because you could hear them laugh. i miss having tons of people over everyday. and playing the fan game. and throwing the exercise ball out the window and back up to the roof.

i don't understand. i try so hard to be the best friend i can, and i end up getting pushed out. i seriously try so hard, and i still don't get it. i remember people always saying "oh liz, she never gets mad shes always laughing" .. well yeah, i'm a happy person and i am so comfortable being myself. i don't need someone to tell me i have a good personality, because i used to be so confident in myself. i don't put an act on for people to think i'm really cool. i hate how people say  "if you don't like me that's YOUR problem." .. no.. because if you don't like me, i take that to mean there's something wrong with me, and it really hurts me.. i'm sorry, it's just the way i am. i take everything personally. 

i dont know where i'm getting at here, but i love kyler, and im so glad i have him. i felt so aweful last night, so he and i just layed a blanket out in his yard and ate cereal and milk. and that's exactly what i needed <3

i have no backbone. if something's bothering me. i keep quiet and wait for it to settle. but now i'm writing an hour-long post that probably nobody will read, but i don't care. i just hate how i can't talk to people. i can't even keep eye contact with someone, ever.  i hate crying infront of people, because it makes me feel stupid and helpless, which is pretty much what i am at this point. i don't stick up for myself, even when i know i didn't do anything wrong. it's the one thing i hate about myself. 

i feel like i've been let down, but i hate blaming people and i hate causing trouble or drama. it's so stupid. i just wish things weren't so hard and life was fair, but i know that will never happen. i'm calling my softball coach and quitting the team tonight. it's just not my top priority, and i'm just overwhelmed right now. it's not worth it.

i love melanie heath, she's always been there for me through everything, no matter what. i'm so glad summer's starting, and i can't wait till we're both in high school. it will be awesome i promise you. <3

i just got off the phone with my sister emily, we had a long talk about all of this, and i feel a little better.. i know i always have my sisters to fall back on. they are the best. emily's coming to town tuesday, and she says we're going out to lunch. i love her.

on top of my miserable feeling last night, i started to walk upstairs and almost stepped on an envelope, and i looked inside and found pictures that nicole's grandma had sent of her and me on halloween, dressed in those huge leaf bags. i literally started laughing/crying at the same time.

we looked rediculous, but we didnt care.. we knew we were cool.. i miss nicole, i never see her anymore. and everytime i do, i just don't feel like i know her like i used to.

so basiclly, i'm just learning to change with times. i'll get over myself and start my summer right. i promise. sorry for venting on here. i know you probably don't care. i'm not trying to make anyone feel bad for me. i'm just letting anyone who cares know why i've been the way i have lately. i don't know. sorry.

love you all <3

edit:

i enabled the comments, because i like feedback.. but dont leave ones like "oh i feel so bad for you im sorry". because i don't need it.

Currently Playing Chariot By Gavin DeGraw [chariot] see related

i've found my calling, in squirrel photography:

...this little guy came to say "hello!"

then he decided he was hungry, so he ate some of my dog's food.

then he's all like "hey liz! will you take my picture?"

so im like "little squirrel guy, of course i will take your picture"

so he scurries up into the tree, and looks back at me for the first shot:

i tell him, i say, "squirrel, that is hot."

so we take some more pictures:

then he ran away.

so there's my adventure with the sweet squirrel i found in my backyard. hope you enjoyed. leave comments about how cute he is.

love you all <3